what i go through

i havent updated this in a while so i figured i would use my day off from classes to do just that. i had a wonderful Vday. Allen gave me this heart neckalce with diamonds in it. we went out for dinner of which my parents paid for. it took for freaking ever! meanwhile ive just been hanging out with my friends and ummm going to school. im making good grades and enjoy most of my classes. well i gotta run! holla!

Friday night Ashley spent the night with me and watched the game over at the house. then when i took her to her house Kristel was at Ms.Sara's house. Kristel, Ashley, and I went to the mall and walmart. then Kristel came back to spend the night with me so she could do a history assignment on the computer. well on our way to Walmart on Sunday Kristel starts to feel bad so we pulled over at the post office in case she got sick. well she laid on the ground and when i finally got her back into the car i took to the ER in PC only because she thought it would be better than driving really far and having the chance of her getting sick. well we spent all day on Sunday in the ER. I dont think ive ever been that scared. we didnt know what was wrong with her and we couldnt get in touch with her mom so it was just me and her at the hospital. they finally said they needed to admit her after about 5 hrs and i sure as hell wasnt going to leave her and her mom there. i have spent sunday, monday, and tuesday at the hospital. she was finally released tonight around 6. maybe she will not have any problems tonight. i am supposed to go over to her house tomorrow for thanksgiving dinner. she has been looking forward to that for weeks. im just glad she started to feel better because no body wants to see one of their best friends hurt like that. they still dont know whats wrong with her but her mom is supposed to take her back to the doc after thanksgiving. i hope it is just a virus and she doesnt have to go through all of this again. my dad said not alot of people would do what i did by staying in the hospital with her. but i hope she would do the same for me.so that has been my busy weekend. it was a good weekend till my friend got sick. War Eagle!

last night i felt like total crap. and i had to study for a biology test. i didnt make it to studying because i felt so bad. i ended up making a 76 on the test which is great for not studying at all. i feel a little better today so i am going to go to church after i pick up my sister from school.

i am in the computer lab printing off notes after PSY. we had a test in there today and i bet 1 million dollars that i failed it. i totally forgot about it. anyways we are probably getting our history test back today and im pretty sure i failed that to or at least didnt make a good grade. at least i should make a good grade on the nest PSY test because the stuff that we are going over is interesting. we are talking about Psychological Disorders. i stayed around the house last night and got into a argument with one of my friends because he has treated me and everyone else that has tried to talk to him like crap. but anyways. i hate having this long amount of time between classes especially since it looks like its going to storm so i cant go out to my car. i talked to Steph last night. she loves OU and doesnt miss auburn except for the football game. right when we were starting to get along she has to do something retarded! even Angie said steph didnt care! it was funny. well i g2g. holla at cha later! PEACE!

I just got home from Oxford. Last night i spent the night with Kristel. we were planning on going to see a movie @ the 1.00 movies in Anniston but we went to eat and went chasing after deer instead! haha it was alot of fun. It was me, cody, and kristel, in Cody's truck and tim and his girl friend in another car. we rode around on top of the mountain for about 45 min then Cody had to be home @ 9:30. then Kristel and i went back to her house and watched tv until it turned itself off around 10 (we think there is a sort in the wire in her tv). we turned it back on and in about 1 hr it did it again and then turned back on so we finally decided to go to sleep since we had to get up and be at her aunts before 5 to baby sit. we baby sat till 10 then we went and got my memory card for my digital camera then we went to change clothes to meet Kristel's aunt for breakfast\lunch. then we headed to the mall and to walmart to shop for christmas presents. then i headed home cause i was supposed to be home @ 1 but i called and they extended the time i could be out. i think tomorrow i am going shopping with my mom. i have to find a new chair to go in my room because the other one is worn out! well i gotta go. peace out!

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

ive been really busy so i have not had the chance to update this thing in a while. and since i dont have class tomorrow and dont have anything better to do i thought i would write. anyways last sunday i had a pretty big fight with my friend Kristel. i bet her neighbors could hear us cause we were both mad and not having a very good day. but we worked it out before i left. when i got home i got in trouble for not coming home right after church. blah blah blah! last night was Kim's bday (kristel's sister) so after church Kristel and i went to hardee's to get her a milkshake and when we did Cody came beside us in the drive through and made noises with his truck and the manager from hardees got his lic plate #! haha i think its kinda funny. then i went back over to kristel's house to eat for kim's bday. i didnt get home till late and i didnt have time to study for a history test i had today! yeah yeah yeah! i failed that! tomorrow im hanging around the house till like 4 then i am going back over to Kristel's house so we can go to the church and clean to raise money for our trip in Dec. then we are going to the movies. im staying over friday night but my mom says i have to be home @ 1 on sat! we'll see about that one! hehe! anyways im talkin to this guy from Oxford that grad the same yr i did and he might come tomorrow night when we go to the movies. well anyways im going to get off here and try to find something to do. cya! PEACE!

dedicated to my friend Justin that passed away!


Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,

I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.

so i am yet again in the computer lab b4 class. its the only thing ive found to do! last night i went to Oxford for a while then went to church. after church Ashley, Kristel, and me went to go see Cody at the haunted forest. we did not even go through it we were just standing by my car when they were about to close and some of the people that were working it scared the crap out of kristel! no suprise there! tonight i have to meet up with Adam to find Kristel some camo pants because we are going as hunters to the halloween party but im technically going to be Jason haha! that is going to be so much fun! but im starting to feel bad for scaring Kristel cause she is one of my best friens and she gets REALLY freaked out easy! anyways tomorrow is the Pell City and Oxford game. i have to watch Adam cause its Senior night and then i have to watch Tiffany and Tiffany cheer or Gutterball will beat me up! so much to do! i hope Pell City wins big over Oxford. All my friends from Oxford are saying they have already lost. thats kinda sad. i still have to go to HIST class today! blah! well at least its the fun class! well ive gotta go im going to listen to music in my car! PEACE!

After class on friday i went to Tennessee for my friends wedding. i met them at Logans after the rehearsal where i met some of Jennifer and Colin's friends which were really cool. then we did a little running around Cleveland and finally ended up at Jennifer's house. Another one of my good friends from World Changers was there and we caught up. Im not getting into that cause she (Sonya) kinda pissed me off a few times! anyways so when we got back to Jennifer's mom's house we had to stay up and wait for her mom cause there was stuff for us to do before the wedding. well we didnt finish till around 4 am and had to be up at 7! so we made it to where the wedding was going to be and for a long time it was just me, sonya, and this girl i met. the wedding was beautiful but it was outside and was REALLY cold. i actually got sick! anyways i couldnt stay for the reception because mom (mom and Brit came too but stayed in a hotel and shopped while i was at the wedding) had to be somewhere sat night and i had to watch Britany. the next day at church i showed Toni my car and she fell in love with it. then after church Kim, Kristel, and I went to Justin's grave and spent some time there. then we had to take Kim home around 4 then Kristel and I went to Walmart to get pics developed of when we went to the Revelation Walk and there were some pics of Justin on there too but when we got there and was looking at the pics they didnt come up the only thing that came up were pics that kim deleted 2 or 3 weeks ago. then we went to meet Cody at the haunted forrest and watched him scare the crap out of people! then i took her home because i had to get home and it was already 9:30. but it was fun hanging out with my friends all weekend even though i pissed my mom off! anyways i was on the Facebook and a friend of mine that moved when we were like 12 or 13 looked me up and added me. its been such a long time! gah and we were best friends growing up. haha we were the only 2 girls in the neighborhood close to our age. it was fun! well i am about to head to class! PEACE

well i got a new car yesterday and i LOVE it. i am going to TN tomorrow for a friends wedding and wont be home until sat night sometime. im looking forward to this road trip i just have to make it through my Philosophy class first! lol! well i gotta go pack! later!

i am yet again in the computer lab after PSY. but i have stuff today to do... i have to look for a car on the net in here. i just got finished with a PSY test and my friend Nikki has PSY right after mine and she also has a test. haha that is pretty funny. yesterday i went to look for cars i found 3 cars i liked... a 2006 Eclipse, the 2005 Jetta, and a new toyota fully done with a body kit, spoiler, rims, and a lot of extra stuff. i REALLY liked it but my parents didnt so thats out. the Elcipse would come with a system and rims on it but my dad doesnt like it because of a really bad blind spot. I DONT CARE about what they like i want one of those cars. but we finally both agreed that we liked the Jetta and they said they would do rims, body kit, and tint my windows for christmas. and the jetta comes with a little computer thing and leather seats (heck yeah!). so today after my history class i am going to Oxford and looking for cars. well i need to look for cars. PEACE.

i am in the computer lab at school between classes and i thought i would update this thing because i dont have anything to do until my last class @ 11. so yesterday i went to church and hung out with some friends. After church we had a meeting about our trip to TN in December. i am in a room with Kristel and Kim. Which is going to be fun since we are all three good friends but they do fight alot (their sisters) and i dont want to get caught up in the drama. of which began last night with Kristel but im not going to go into that right now. anyways.. I am going to the Pell City homecoming game tomorrow night (if i dont i will be in trouble cause some of my friends said id better be there!) against CCHS.i am in the process of finding a new car but i have no idea what i want because the car i WANT the Toyota Celica are not being made anymore. i think we get our test back in HIST today! i hope i did well! i cant wait till Ashley's halloween party. im going to dress up and hide in the woods for the haunted hay ride their having. thats going to be so fun. and i think we may be going to a haunted house that night too but i dont know. i guess it depends on if i get a car! of which i need by next weekend because i have to go to TN for a wedding. well anyways i gotta go i need to finish printing off some notes! PEACE!

tonight i went to church because i had to pay my $40 to go on the Youth Trip and plus i over slept this morning. My mom left for her conference thing in bham today and took alot of my new clothes. and some i havent even worn yet! anyways! after church Cody, Kristel, me, Kim, Kyle, Ashley, Kayla ,Nick, and Chris went to the HAUNTED FOREST. We had to divide into 2 groups because we had too many people to go in 1 group. the 1st group was Cody, Kristel, Kim, Kyle, and Me. Kristel was really scared! it was kinda funny but then she got really freaked out when the guys with Chainsaws came after us! i thought she was going to have a heart attack. the 2nd group was Kayla, Nick, Chris, and Ashley. they went in after us and they said they could hear kristel screaming! it was fun. then i took ashley home and then i went over and hung out with kristel for a while. they were getting ready for Six Flags. our youth group is going on Monday because everyone BUT ME was out for fall break! that sucked i wanted to go. but i did get to play with our new puppy and talk to my friends from NC and TN between studying for 2 test! WOW i had fun! lol! well anyways i gotta go. HOLLA!

i didnt get to go to school today! yay! i was in a wreck yesterday and spent 5 hrs in Oxford hospital to make sure i wasnt seriously hurt. but my car was SMASHED! so yeah now i dont have a car and im having to borrow my dad's pathfinder until i get a new car or find out if it can be fixed (somehow i dont think so) seeing the car today made me thankfull that i was alive. im really lucky. anyways. im going to try to go to church tomorrow if i am up to it cause i am seriously sore as crap! the day i wreck made 3 months since Justin died! thats scary. but anyways i gotta go get ready for Biology class. PEACE!

this would have come in handy last yr! lol! these can be found at getannoyed.com
there is so much more i couldnt fit them all on here!


Make your bed 15 times a day. Sleep on the floor.
Make your finger talk to you. Write backwards on the walls.
Mount a wall-sized mirror on your wall and then ask your roommate not to look at it because demonic forces from the other side will escape into this world if s/he does.
Move all of his furniture outside. Tell him/her that it was such a nice day out, you wanted to be sure s/he enjoyed it.
Move all of your possessions to your roommate's side of the room, and all of his/her possessions to your side. Move everything back the next day. Do this each day for a week.
Move everything to one side of the room. Ask your roommate if s/he knows how much an elephant weighs, and look at the floor on the empty side of the room with concern.
Move very stiffly and grin. Tell your roommate that you've turned into Gumby.
Move your bed around the room once a day, and leave it in a new position every night.
Move your roommate's personal effects around. Start subtly. Gradually work up to big things, and eventually glue everything s/he owns to the ceiling.
Nail boards across your window. When your roommate asks why, tell him/her you know they're all watching you.
Nail meat to the walls. Bacon is best.
Name your books. Call them like dogs when it's time to study.
Never allow your roommate's head to be below yours.
Never speak to your roommate directly. If you need to ask or tell him/her something, go to another room and call him/her on the phone.
Open a can of his/her beans or spaghetti, empty it into his/her bed and then replace the can in the cupboard.
Open the window. After 30 minutes, complain about the cold and open it wider.
Open your window shades before you go to sleep each night. Close them as soon as you wake up.

                                                                               Justin's Poem  

Justin Daniel Mason
3/26/1988 - 7/03/2005

I want to tell you a story about my life here on earth
I spent 17 years among you, but it started before my birth
I had two loving parents that loved me before I was born
They made me whole as a person they nurtured and kept me warm

They never had another child; I was all their dreams come true
They knew I needed all their love and freely they gave it to.
I guess I am a mixture of what comes from parents like them
My mom says I’m just like her; my dad says I’m just like him

I was never very popular, but I touched lives just the same
I remember the time I met Jordan I shook his hand and told him my name
My friends and I stuck together we had good times and bad
But I can honestly tell you Jordan, Ryan & Brody are the best friends I had

I was never one to put on “What you see is what you get”
But I can say my heart was open and my love a sure bet
I had the best of everything this world could have given me
At least everything that matters which is good friends and family

So my life has been spent wisely touching lives and living well
And to all my friends out there here is one last rebel yell!
To my family I leave you all the memories we once shared
Keep your faith and know just how deeply I cared

Mom and dad I love you; I will see you again I know
Just hold on to my memory and never let it go
Know that I am safe; I am with the Lord above
I am with you also; I am that feeling of perfect love.

Until we meet again,
Justin Mason 

friday night i went with Kristel, Kim, Ashley, and Kayla to the Wellborn game in Heflin. Wellborn lost 28-0:(. Oxford lost :) but PC won :). after the game Matt, Samantha, Cody, Ashley, Kim, Kristel, and me went to taco bell. we played football in the parking lot... haha! then kristel, kim, and i dropped ashley off at her house and then went to their house and drank! :)! fun times. their mom was in a wreck that night and totaled Kristel's car. We finally went to bed around 3 or 4 and had to be at Cody's house @ 7 to help his mom. we ended up staying all day but then we went to walmart and got pics copied. we caught Sam on her lunch break and went to Sonic. SHE HAS A FEW OF MY CDs. Today i went shopping with my mom. i bought a whole bunch off stuff. it was fun. well im going to go cause im tired. peace out.

i havent updated this lately. ive been busy with school and on the weekends i have been hanging out with some friends in Oxford. my friend Kristel doesnt want me to go back to Auburn. i guess she is afraid that we wont stay in touch. she makes a good point because i lost contact when i moved to AU last yr. we played a mean trick on one of our friends the other night. it was mean but we had to prove a point. she planned things out if kristel and i werent friends anymore and all we did was made it look like we werent friends anymore to see what she would do. i mean ashley has stolen money from Kristel and other people b4. she even stole from Justin before he died. friday night i went to Wellborns homecoming cause Sonny "had to work" friday night. wellborn lost in OT on the last play of the game Saks was down to their final down and they scored a TD. pell city kicked carvers butt thursday night 42-0. i had fun even though i didnt get to do what i wanted to but i worked things out with somebody i was close to my senior yr (at least i think we straightend things out). this friday i am spending the night with Kristel and going to the Wellborn game in Heflin. FUN! anyways ive gotta go i need to study for PSY cause i have a test in that class this week. PEACE!

yesterday was Kristel's suprise party. it was awesome she was TOTALY suprised! we had a water balloon fight and just hung out. then our Church Softball team banquet was last night. Cody, Kristel, Kayla, Ashley, and i stayed for them to eat and give out awards then we left. we drove up to the skating rink and saw a bunch of black people going in and Ashley and I were wearing Dixie Outfitter shirts with the Confederate Flag on it. so we had to go to Walmart. after walmart we went skating. last night was a lot of fun. well g2g to church. holla!